a new year {2010}

The last puzzle piece of 2009 is in place and a new year begins. 

I feel like I should be setting goals, planning projects, dreaming, reaching, achieving… and at the same time, I seem to be stuck in the same.  The here & now of my life.  Afraid to take risks.  To try something new.  Just comfortable. 

Maybe it’s a stay-at-home mom issue.  A feeling of not “doing anything”.  No importance.  No significance.  Just blah.   

Maybe it’s an “almost 40” thing.  I didn’t think that turning 40, (which I will do in mid-February), would be a big deal.  The closer it gets, the more daunting it becomes. 

I’m not sure what it is.  But I’m not a big fan of this feeling. 

Maybe it’s spiritual.  I will be honest, my daily devotions, time spent with God, hasn’t happened much lately.  I know I am saved.  I know He loves me.  I do spend a lot of time talking to God.  Praying.  But time in His Word, is where I fail. 

Seems like here I am again.  New year.  Same feeling.  Clinging to these verses…

• Jeremiah 29:11-14a   “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the LORD,…”